I apologize to my followers that I have not written in a while, computer troubles kept me away. However, now that I am back I fear that my first blog upon my return is not a happy one.
Abbi is back in her “I want mommy to sing me to sleep otherwise I refuse to stop screaming” phase. Which, is fine. It normally takes five to fifteen minutes of particular songs and she is out. The problem is her staying asleep. The last few nights in particular.
Take last night for instance. She is sung to sleep and then wakes up before I have even had a chance to fall asleep and doesn’t let me sing her back to sleep, nothing. She screams and cries and wants to come into our bed and watch a movie. I have done this before so that is no problem. The problem was, she did not fall asleep like she did the last time this was done. I was up and down all night because our little one wanted me to be and I couldn’t put her back in her crib to cry herself to sleep because Tyler gets up for work at 6am and needs his rest and sadly is a light sleeper and cant sleep through the babys crying.
Tonight however, is the same kind of story but a little worse for wear. Abbi fell asleep to my singing, and I went to bed early very tired from being up all night before. Then, at 2:30am she woke me up screaming. I spent a half an hour singing her to sleep with most of the time her eyes closed until I stopped singing and then she opened them to see if I was there. She then wanted to go into the living room but because of the night before I did not want her too and was hoping she was tired enough still to fall asleep. She was exhausted, I know that, but refused to rest. She stood in her crib crying her eyes out and kicking and making a fuss because she didn’t even want me to sing to her. So finally, at almost 4 in the morning, I bring her into our bed and turn on a movie. She has two peanut butter sandwhiches, some milk, and then falls asleep on my side of the bed with me being wide awake and unable to sleep. Lets just say this is going to be a very, very long day..
Don’t get me wrong.. I hate that my poor baby isn’t sleeping and doesn’t want to be in her crib. I am honored she wants to be with us.. but as long as she SLEEPS and lets us do the same.
Ai, Ai, Ai…
Loving and Learning,